Wednesday, March 7, 2012

New perspective

This has been mainly an internship chronicles blog this past year, and yesterday I completed the last day of my medical internship. (At this point, we all shall stop whatever we are doing and get up from our chairs and do a mini-jiggly-crazy dance. 20 secs. Yes! Good. Everyone should dance in honor of me completing my internship!)

It's been a memorable year, in more ways than one, that much I can say. And no, I am not shutting down this blog, this isn't a farewell post, so stop worrying about that.

This is just a post which has no direction, as of now.

But a few things I have realized this last year. Kind of like acquiring some new gyaan, and looking at the world with a new perspective.

Glasses by ~Bardouv

For example, I learnt that nothing quite matches the feeling of simple satisfaction you get after a long day at work. But also that not all people get that feeling.

That one should always turn to chocolate in times of need; on bad-hair days, and otherwise.

That friends are often overrated. People grow up and change and drift apart. They fight and they hold grudges and they bite. However, at times, you do make that genuine, unconditional, plain and simple friend, who is your friend for absolutely no reason or purpose, other than being a friend. Don't forget to hold on to that person.

That sometimes, not pushing yourself to your limits, and just doing what pleases you, also works wonders. That it's too much effort to spend every waking minute being hard upon yourself.

That talking, in general, to anyone, about anything, is not really my thing.

That being taught well is a privilege you don't often get, even after five and a half years in medical "school". So those rare teachers that you come across, one should remember to respect them and to thank them. 

That there are two ways you can command respect from the people around you. Either you force them to give it to you, by virtue of your seniority, or you earn it, by virtue of your knowledge and conduct.

That even after all my pessimism, at the end of the day, I love my profession.

That writing, is my thing. My person. My backup. My hiding place. My safe place.

The best part about last year about last year has been this blog. .

That reading good poetry is one of the greatest joys in my life. It's almost miraculous how some arrangements of words can be so beautiful.

That in the end, very few things matter. But knowing what does and what doesn't, that's the clincher.

That time wasted, doing what you love, is never time wasted. Yes, that thing people always said, it was true.

That sometimes in life, we discover too late the things we truly love and the things that truly matter. And yet, there's enough joy in just the discovery itself, to make everything okay.

That, when things get bad, it's best to just turn off the lights, curl up under a cozy quilt and sleep everything off.

That, you never know when, and where, and how, you may bump into people who will change the entire course of your life, in a matter of time. And that you can never be prepared for them.

That there aren't really many pre-emptive measures in life, they're there only in medicine.

That anonymity and fame, can never both be acquired together. Sooner or later, you have to choose one.

That everyday is a new opportunity to be better.

That nothing in the world is quite like a good love story.

That being able to ignore people is a superpower like no other.

That it takes bravery to be able to sing like no one is hearing, and dance like no one is watching.

That I am not very brave, except with words.

That I can turn any post into a long philosophical ramble, with no head or tail, and publish it here.

That people will still be around to read this kind of stuff.

That I am bad at closing lines.

That....well...that's that.


  1. Very well written.. except nw i am doubly sure that there's some guy in ur life..!!

  2. Aayushi I had a breakdown and nearly-in-tears day today and reading this just made me want to cry more out of sheer joy on reading the words I so badly needed to read... well done you <3

  3. I think I can same-pinch you on more than a few points mentioned here. You might turn red. :P
    Keep writing, girl! All luck! :)

  4. Good, humorous post.
    This will soon displace the one whose abbreviated title would require colored boxes for treatment.

  5. You've captured this past year in the few words which we find difficult to pen down.. It's perfect.

  6. @mkk : Please elaborate. Also, you found all this philosophy humorous?

  7. Aww Aayushi, I love this! :) I think this has been my favourite of all your posts about internship. :D And so much of it resonates with me that it's just incredible! :)

    I would like to think that through this blog, I have kinda tagged along on this journey with you and we've sort of ended it together (although I still have a week each of paeds and PSM compensation to do!) and hasn't it been a rather illuminating one year of our lives?

    Oh, one more lesson I think I've learned while vigorously nodding my head in agreement to all these here has been that no matter how hard I try, I can never make everyone happy - there will always be someone who's dissatisfied or disgruntled or disapproving. And well, to hell with them! :) Also, I've learned that in the world, really, nothing succeeds like success - a great rank, a great pair of shoes and a great car all impress and startlingly these can be the least significant things about you in the end. But then, that's how the cookie crumbles.

    Good luck with life in general, Aayushi, though you really won't be needing it.

    I'm gonna stick around here for ages and ages to come. :)

    1. Yes, indeed you have tagged along! Ad a very illuminating year it was, indeed :)

      Thank you for sharing your lessons, the thing about never being able to make everyone happy really, really rings true!

      I hope you do stick around and I hope you keep writing as well :)

      Here's to another year of great blog posts :)

  8. Such a succinct, yet complete summary of this past year, and life in general. You're blog is perhaps my voice when I'm at a loss for words, only its not my blog :P

  9. I have been redirected here a couple of times, never to be disappointed. I am awed by your ability to put across beautifully that which we all intuitively know. What you enjoy in poetry, I derive from words like these. This blog gets added to my reader from today!!